As I read the next page in my journey through Valley of Vision by Arthur Bennett, I was captivated by his simple prayer facing all of us who claim to be part of the ministry. His title is A Minister’s Confession (p.187), but the prayer grips my soul.
Here is an abridged version of his prayer:
I know that I often do Your work without Your power,
and sin by my dead, heartless, blind service,
and sin by my lack of inward light, love, delight,
and sin by my mind, heart, tongue moving without Your help.
I see sin in my heart in seeking the applause of others;
This is my vileness, to make men’s opinion my rule, whereas,
I should see what good I have done,
and give You the glory.
I must consider my sin, confess my sin and mourn.
It is my deceit to preach, teach or pray,
and to stir up others spiritual affections
in order to gain commendations.
Instead, my rule should be
to daily consider myself more vile
than any man in my own eyes.
Teach me to act by a power supernatural,
So that I can attempt things beyond my strength,
and bear evils beyond my strength
May I learn to live in Christ in all spheres, and
experience His superior power to energize my being.
Honest confession is good. Not only is it good, it is needed in a day of self-assertion that births pride in my heart. What my God wants of me and my fellow pilgrims is that we humble ourselves into becoming conduits of His amazing grace on display to a world searching for its identity.